Waste of a perfectly good diaper
Aside from when I slept, I spent the entire weekend in diapers, from Friday night when I got home until Sunday when I went to bed. I don’t enjoy sleeping in diapers; I find it distracts me from sleeping and I can’t deal with any kinds of distractions when I’m trying to sleep. Once in a blue moon I’ll be able to fall asleep in a diaper, though the last time I woke up because it was sweaty and bothering me so I took it off. In an effort to not waste diapers, unless it’s already wet, I won’t wear it to bed.
This morning I decided it would be fun to wear a diaper on the way home from work. I do not relish the idea of wearing a diaper to work, as I’d likely hate wearing it at work. However, I thought that wearing a diaper on the way home could be fun.
It wasn’t, I’m sorry to say. I packed a Bambino Bianco (which I bought specifically in case the NYPD decided to randomly check my briefcase on my way through Penn Station…way less embarrassing than a Bambino Classico) without a booster. I thought that if I got out of work early enough, I’d sneak into the bathroom and put it on before running to catch my train.
As it was a slow day at work, I was able to leave the office at about 5:15. So I went into the Men’s room down the hall and attempted to put my diaper on sitting up. What a disaster that was. I managed to get it on, but I do not enjoy diapering myself sitting up. It was not my best work, though I think it may not have leaked had I chose to wet in it.
It’s funny, about a year ago (apparently) I read this post by Adrian on I Heart Diapers regarding how she diapers herself. I found it interesting and even took a few tips from it, including putting powder directly on the diaper, which has been a huge help to me as previously I was way over-powdering. Now I sprinkle powder from front to back of the diaper and I’m good to go! This way I conserve powder and don’t make a mess (of powder) in my diaper, which is awesome.
I never thought it would be a topic of conversation or blogging for myself, but the truth is that diapering is one of the few times I’m hardcore about babyish authenticity. In addition to on a miniscule level feeling more like a baby, I’m much better at it. When I finish diapering myself lying down, I merely need to make the top tapes more snug. When I attempted to put my diaper on sitting down tonight, I felt like I needed a mommy or babysitter to tell me I didn’t know what I was doing and that she would be changing my diapers from then on.
So it was 5:15 and my train home leaves at 5:36 and it’s about a six minute walk from my office to Penn Station. So I slip into the bathroom and attempt to put my diaper on. It was a waste of five minutes in addition to a wasted diaper. I was afraid I’d put it on so awfully that if I wet it would most certainly leak.
I suppose it wasn’t all bad. I did enjoy the extra padding that the diaper afforded me and when I got to my local train station and went to sit on what was surely a cold metal bench to wait for the bus home, my diaper insulated my behind from the cold. But, by and large, it failed to live up to my expectations.
But I was very glad to get home, wet the diaper I was wearing, and change into a fresh diaper complete with a Bambino Quadro Booster and a sprinkle of baby powder. All’s well that ends well, I suppose, but that’s an experience I’m not likely to want to have again any time soon. It sucked all of the enjoyment out of actually wearing a diaper and made it purely, albeit questionably, functional.
In the end, though, it’s all for the best, as I really did not want to have to order one case of diapers per month. I can usually make it two and a half before I completely run out as it is now, and I’d prefer to keep it that way. I think when I finally can afford my own place (I’m living at home in the ‘burbs because apartments in NYC are ridiculously expensive) I may have to switch to cloth to save $. I don’t look forward to that day, but it would be better for the environment and I could get them embroidered, which’d be cute. And I could get cute plastic panties. But that’s still a ways down the road. I’m going to rock the Bambino’s diapers as long as I can.
I have some ideas cooking for things to come, including letting the little girl inside me out to play. I’m thinking of photo-documenting a trip to shopping Victoria’s Secret, probably by myself as I’m not very open about my inner little girl, and doing a week of wearing different styles of panties, as well as a shopping trip to Old Navy to look to see if I can find an denim overall-style dress among other things) in my size that conveniently don’t cover my diaper. I think I’m going to try and drop some weight and maybe a size before I do that, though, so I”ll probably set a goal for the spring to give me time to save up some $.
And there you have it; way more than I expected to post on an otherwise uneventful Monday.
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